I'm at a point in my life where it's time to make or break. I'll be 35 by the end of this year and for some reason it feels very, very old. I feel as if I don't make a move now to create the life I want for myself then I will forever be stuck with the life I currently possess. I had a dream a while ago about being 35. It wasn't pleasant. I felt as though life had passed me by. I felt like I was out of time. I felt like my window of opportunity had closed.
Don't get me wrong. My life isn't really all that horrible. In fact, I tend to believe that if I didn't have high hopes, aspirations and desires, that I would really enjoy my life as it is. Some things have come around for me lately. It looks like my house situation is finally going to be settled. I just sent the paperwork in this week for our final agreement and the mortgage has returned to terms of when I first purchased it nearly six years ago. That is a monumental happening. I haven't been in a strong position with my home for nearly three years. I'm certain the terms agreed upon will be the last change I make unless I move.
That bit of success was a fight. A fight to the finish. I had come so close to losing my home. They went all the way to court and were in a position to take the home. I on the other hand, returned to working retail (a job I hate in it's fashion of work). I worked 70+ hour weeks at times. I did so to save my home and support my children. I wanted stability and to provide for them as I know I should as a man and as a father. Whatever it took, I was willing to do it.
Now that I have walked up that mountain I'm not satisfied to just stay where I am. I want so much more out of life. I want to be able to lay out a future for my children economically that will provide them with momentum to propel my grandchildren to heights unseen by the previous generations. I can only do this by first passing on my faith and my values to my children. Secondly, by instilling in them a strong work ethic and understanding of how life works. Thirdly, by doing my part to provide for them a life starting cushion that allows them to start life without the weights of debt on their backs.
With that in mind, I have to get to a place where I want it like I want breath (see video). I have to eat, sleep, and drink my dreams. I have to be focused and remain motivated. I'm not one to endorse fanaticism (though I can be fanatical). Yet, there is a need for drive and focus with balance. I have a plan that I'm working on even as I write. This is a plan that I have sought counsel on, explored my options, and is the clearest path to economic well being for now and in the long run.
I still have plans to pursue my other dreams as well. They too are in the works. I've put my hand to the plow. Now, I have remember there is no turning back. I hope you find the video inspiritational. I hope you find a dream that causes you to focus. More than find your dream, I hope you are able to obtain it. HOW BAD DO YOU WANT IT?
